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2015 Rezzies

1/4/2015

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I sat at two dinner tables last week stumbling through excuses as to why I have no resolutions  ("uh, I don't really do those...") - while my table mates spouted off earnest creeds of self improvement. I am following suit with some of my own.

1. Be More Thoughtful

I have come to a shameful conclusion. I'm not a very thoughtful person. In some abstract, emotional ways I am, but tangibly--not really.

For instance, it won't even cross my mind until I arrive on someone's doorstep that I could have gone beyond just bringing a bottle of wine, or that it would have been nice to remember a card for so-and-so for a certain occasion, or that maybe I could have sent flowers or something for xyz event. Something. I witness acquaintances effortlessly conjure tokens of kindness small and large like it is second nature to them and I just think, Wow. I'm such an asshole. So while I hate to admit it doesn't come naturally to me, I resolve to be more conscious and considerate and selfless and thoughtful.

2. Stop Spending Money on Food and Wine, you Idiot, and Save More (like, for a House?)

Really, that's all I have to say about that.

3. Family

Spend as much time with my mom as possible, be sure to thank all those who help her as often and profusely as I can, and coerce her into to letting me help out more, even if she is impossibly stubborn.

4. Professionally

Make more money and don't get bored at work. And keep writing every day even if it gets hard or disheartening.

5. Graduate

(walking in May, finally. Wooo!)


2015 will bring highs, and surely some lows, all for which I'll be equipped with doting (thoughtful!) friends and loved ones and I'm so thankful.

Below, keep in mind Lily normally does not bark. Ever.
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Kevin
2/13/2015 05:56:19 am

1) I used to think I should get better at this. Maybe I still do. I think it's just ingrained. I think it's genetic. We're all assholes.

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Mustard
2/13/2015 07:05:34 am

Ok, that makes me feel better. Since this posting, I have not improved. Maybe got worse, actually, because I completely forgot that I even resolved to be more thoughtful.

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